“I have learned now that while those who speak about one’s miseries usually hurt, those who keep silence hurt more.”

“Anger is a wound gone mad.”

I can say today that its been sad.... yes I am still hurt... and i just want it to go away... I don't think im wrong... look  inside yourself and you will know why im  hurt and mad .. I think  you all know its just the fact of not accepting it to yourself... I invite you to hate me today, it is you  today and tomorrow it will be someone else, its just the way it goes....  it would be bull shit if i say i wish you all well cause its not the fact i wish you nothing at all... not good not bad just nothing.. as silence is as nothing... if there is such thing as odorless of nothingness that is all.. i wish, silence in my mind  heart and soul....... i wish that you just go away from my mind... no mention of any of your names just gone with the wind.... no hurt no pain no nothing... lets learn how to live with out each other.. so far we have done a very poor job in accomplishing it...

Thanks

so yeah  i love my major..  right now  life couldn't be more perfecto and stressful  but the best part of my life right now is that i love the stress of my life cause its all about TV production, writing for the media, mass media, pr campaigns and its so much damn work  but i'm passionate about it!!!!!  today im a bit tired to  talk about the most funniest shit that has happened to me.. but if i knew that this is what i wanted to  i would have started a long time ago.. but im glad i found it ... THANK you LIFE  AND MY  BIG FOREHEAD FOR THE decisions i've made up till now  with some slight  curves! i got to what i love.... ohh  and steph thanks for helping me through the process and emely correcting my non broadcast writing skills or may i say that any skills.. creativity is what saves me not the grammar.. NOR THE ACTIVE SENTENCES  hahaha 

Ps. May I say that  WTF  does  Lady gaga   have on  her head ok first dress with the  mask ok got it..second the red thing  ok  original  BUT THE  ALSKAN - ESCIMO PEACOCK  mmm not feelin it at allllll..... ok another thing.. I ahve my new hero BEYONCE  what she did  for talor swift was one of the most lady like and down to earth thing that she could of done I loved it.. and apart from that... I just love beyonce jajajaj  its like my new thng...  IM GONNA PUT A PICTURE UP IN MY ROOM JUST NEXT TO MARILYN MONROE, MY BRITO'S PAINTING, nelson mandela, tina turner, frank sinatra, martin L King AND MORE ill just squeeze in Beyonce.... 

Can i just say that who was the audiovisual director or the director of the vma's?.. switching to oone camara to another  was not smooth at all and the audio was not great.. but the  i guess the  floor director was not expecting all the drama.....  soo ok enough is enough

ok gotta go and take out my dog and read CH3  writing for the media!!!! 

Bisous! and good night

thats all for now folks! 

MY SCHOOL'S CONDOM!

Ok so i haven't been writing   for a long long time!!! its not  that i've forgotten  my blog its that i have been soooooo  busy that i havent't had time to  just sit  down.. so i decided that  while I watch the VMA'S   in between  commercials  i'll just write..

so there's been a couple of things that's been bugging me .. 

so first, Now that i have class at 9 thirty am  i have to park all the way over.... well lets just say its far... so i have to walk right and well there this CONDOM  on the street like where students have to pass  by everyday.. If its still there tomorrow ill take a picture of it! and  i think its gross so  First day  of school im like well i guess the cleaning people haven't seen it  but then a week as  passed by and the  dirty grayish  condom  is  still there! so every time i see it i have this thing inside me that just  wants to take it a throw it but of course thats gross who  fucks and then  crosses the grasssssss and throws his condom right where all students walk to go to class.. and what cleaning lady doesn't see it..  I know that i'm  closer to the floor  BUT COMMON PEOPLE! ITS GREY LOOKING BROKED CONDOM and may i say  its quite big .... 

ADIOS

y si te digo que me duele..... y si te grito de la punta del mundo que te amo..... nada de eso bastara.... mi corazon va explotar de tanto dolor, de tanta indiferencia.. como puede una persona tener tantas lagrimas.. este mes solo a sido de muertes...  llorar solo te puede hacer mas fuerte.... hoy como hoy te grito te amoooooo con la misma intensidad con la cual te odio........ de que me sirven tus migajas.... tus mentiras... y mucho menos tu amistad....siempre dice  la gente te deseo lo mejor yo no te deseo nada!!!  ni bien ni mal.. tu vida despues de mi no me interesa saber de q se trata... 

dime mundo de q vale amar si no se puede perdonar? de que vale ver ala persona que sabes que amas sufrir como nutre eso tu ego? asi como lloro hoy  yo se q miles mas lloran por amor.... 

Emely said .. lOVE IS KIND LOVE IS PEACE LOVE IS WORK....

I saw..... I want to make mistakes with you forever...... And I want that....

Today There was love in the air! and a waiter captured it!!!!.....Thank you life for 3 lives I live in one body... but always the same people around!.....

Andy Warhol.. You, I guess Eddie without the child in her!

I understood who you were today.. andy warhol is your name... you use and you convince yourself that its normal and correct.... when your done and bored you find a new prospect.

 I once saw the world with irony... and we saw the world the same... I hope in ur mission you dont find who to blame and find your soul in the process....

I understood today that hate can take you many places... I understood today that you want to destroy whats left..... but ive been so use to be used that one more or a couple or few wont affect. 

In my pool while the storm was out side and the demons where in disguise.. the world paused for a moment and I saw all the faces around me and one by one I could see the love I have for them and the love they had for me.... it was amazing... we laughed and laughed we remembered and remembered and for a moment I forgot about the storm and I lived this moment and I realized that I should not concentrate on what is done in the storm, it was at home that the light was in pleno esplendor....

The blond mayan goddess jaja we got a kick out of that..... Duodeno en su pleno esplendor y apojeo.. Una chica soltera... chica comprometida.... una ardillita.. and I could go on for days....

I am now back to where I started to become sane.... and I left insanity behind..... If two dont play the game there is no game to be played.... so play it You've won.. Because I forget the game...when im next to them...the the both of the him's ...and to the girls.... Thank God and life for inventing this thing called tranquility & Peacefulness.  

Im not ashamed to say ME DUELE.. but it will go away

extrano como nos reiamos hasta hacernos pipi..extrano como se sentia saber q eras mi "hermana".... 

y a ti extrano tu risa  q me daba risa..... y las cosas q pasaban y solo nos tu y yo nos entendiamos.... 

Y ati extrano tu sarcasmo .. q podia decir cosas politically incorrect y tu entendias q no era de mala onda...... and we would laugh..... obsesionada por cosas q no tenia porq estarlo!! jajaja 

Q puedo decir extrano lo q fue ... pero el tiempo paso y todos esos sentimientos tmb.... y como me dijo ella... tu sentiemiento es puro ya su sentimiento no lo es..let it go.. and i do but then I see picture of you smiling being  happy y mi corazon sinks y pienso como me gustaria  compartir esa felicidad.. pero even if we call and say hello.. we both know it will never be the same.. so I wish you the best..and  as for  me I wish to forget always with a smirk on my face...

Good bye people... 

Comments

These are comments that have been floating in my  mind that once in a while  they suddenly pop to remind me that im alive.

I miss you sometimes, no one understands my jokes the way you did.... but then again ... I cant forget and cause i cant forget I cant trust and I cant believe.... But I don't hate you... 

This process im dealing with right now is healthy its like  eating a carrot when you've been eating only junk food for like 3 weeks..the carrot feels fresh when you chew..... Me having a life and knowing that when your affecting me i stop and breath say to my self stop!!! you can go on now.... and its the first time i breath from one session to an other..... and it feels good.. weird because I usually just  fight for what i shouldnt want.... and then get onto a new horse and fight that one.. i don't get off the horse walk and absorb what ive been missing... and i guess it feels good  but it takes time and hard work fighting against my nature.. but i have to do it.. and im doing it....

Just another day

some thing are better left unsaid.... i thought...

WE WANT ALL the car, the body, the friends, the life... and no suffering .. and we still think im nt asking for much...

My body aches even my wrist..... my eyes crave for sleep.. I finally know what is to work a 10 hour job and say OHHH GOD ITS SATURDAY and be so tired to even go out see this beautiful saturday.....  french back stabbers , mexican back stabbers, colombian backstabbers, english backstabbers, american backstabbers... their all over the place something learned in all languages and ages.... gotta say 

Gotta say that I love my life at this moment even if  it hasnt been that glamorous  its been  an experience.... love to  cook at my house.... Today I decided to talk in myself have no patience to talk to people today its a ME day ! a good ME day...... no questions asked because there will be no answers ....... 

Just another day in ths planet called world...in this head called my mind ... in this body that they called KARINE ......  

pipi's del mundo

So do we fuck after the month of dating or second ...and if we wait... they stop calling because QUE HUEVA and if they dont the'll go steady then fuck you and then tell you gotta go..and leave you...So  im trying to find and answer for my friend and well I guess the whole thing about following your heart and instincts ...she aint buying it cause well I guess me following my gut feeling hasnt helped me that much..so  i cant use my self  as an example" OH YEAH WELL SEE HOW GREAT THE FOLLOWING  MY HEART WENT FOR ME ummm NO "  but I keep on doing it....  so I have to find an answer..ive been asking these human beings with  penises that walk around this planet... WHEN HOW WHERE WHY ....and guess what they all ahve different answers... so I guess ni ellos se ponen de acuerdo.....  SO PENISES  OF THE WORLD!!!! I QUESTION  YOU TO QUESTION  YOURSELF AND COME WITH AN ANSWER WHEN IS IT OK FOR YOUR  hairy elephant with googelly eyes come and swim in the pond...( hope for it not to be a hairy pond)