Im not ashamed to say ME DUELE.. but it will go away

extrano como nos reiamos hasta hacernos pipi..extrano como se sentia saber q eras mi "hermana".... 

y a ti extrano tu risa  q me daba risa..... y las cosas q pasaban y solo nos tu y yo nos entendiamos.... 

Y ati extrano tu sarcasmo .. q podia decir cosas politically incorrect y tu entendias q no era de mala onda...... and we would laugh..... obsesionada por cosas q no tenia porq estarlo!! jajaja 

Q puedo decir extrano lo q fue ... pero el tiempo paso y todos esos sentimientos tmb.... y como me dijo ella... tu sentiemiento es puro ya su sentimiento no lo es..let it go.. and i do but then I see picture of you smiling being  happy y mi corazon sinks y pienso como me gustaria  compartir esa felicidad.. pero even if we call and say hello.. we both know it will never be the same.. so I wish you the best..and  as for  me I wish to forget always with a smirk on my face...

Good bye people... 

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These are comments that have been floating in my  mind that once in a while  they suddenly pop to remind me that im alive.

I miss you sometimes, no one understands my jokes the way you did.... but then again ... I cant forget and cause i cant forget I cant trust and I cant believe.... But I don't hate you... 

This process im dealing with right now is healthy its like  eating a carrot when you've been eating only junk food for like 3 weeks..the carrot feels fresh when you chew..... Me having a life and knowing that when your affecting me i stop and breath say to my self stop!!! you can go on now.... and its the first time i breath from one session to an other..... and it feels good.. weird because I usually just  fight for what i shouldnt want.... and then get onto a new horse and fight that one.. i don't get off the horse walk and absorb what ive been missing... and i guess it feels good  but it takes time and hard work fighting against my nature.. but i have to do it.. and im doing it....

Just another day

some thing are better left unsaid.... i thought...

WE WANT ALL the car, the body, the friends, the life... and no suffering .. and we still think im nt asking for much...

My body aches even my wrist..... my eyes crave for sleep.. I finally know what is to work a 10 hour job and say OHHH GOD ITS SATURDAY and be so tired to even go out see this beautiful saturday.....  french back stabbers , mexican back stabbers, colombian backstabbers, english backstabbers, american backstabbers... their all over the place something learned in all languages and ages.... gotta say 

Gotta say that I love my life at this moment even if  it hasnt been that glamorous  its been  an experience.... love to  cook at my house.... Today I decided to talk in myself have no patience to talk to people today its a ME day ! a good ME day...... no questions asked because there will be no answers ....... 

Just another day in ths planet called world...in this head called my mind ... in this body that they called KARINE ......