I just wanted to say that before she started to sing she was saying  and I quote : '' TU SABES QUIEN ERES ..ESTO ES PARA TI..... SI SOY MALA HIERBA Y QUE"

i  could not  put that part  in video because I was getting out of shock and then taking out the camera...... 

yaro y kaky

The Movie

Do you remember???!!! 

I do, I remember the kiss the soft kiss!!! 

in a warm  winter night.... isn't that ironic.. 

a little bit like us!!! 

Ironic just like us!!!

All Colors...all centuries!! all hearts... have felt a heart ache!!! ..I think thats the only feeling that has been shared by all human beings all language's,  all continents.... all generations 

...that indescribable feeling that all can only feel

 and not portray in words!!!

Today I am not broken  hearted  

but  I saw a movie that reminded me of  that heartbroken feeling...

I saw them kiss and it reminded me of that feeling of the kiss..

 it also inlightended me that no kiss, no act of love is like in the movies...

or may be it is, we just dont remember ....because it happens so fast.. and while the act happens where to busy reminding our selves to: "remember this time for ever it might never happen again" 

 The movie ......Before she let the  girl stay  in her house i knew the girl would betray her because to be able to betray you have to first  belong.....

give a person a stick to help them get up and with that same stick they'll beet the living hell out of you..

.Show a person the world and they will blind you for seeing it before them.....We should  never idealize external sources.....at the end they are just sources....

Today Ive learned  to not remember what you have already forgotten and today I have also learned that I have not forgot the forgotten....

I love you very simple words with complicated feelings...

as once was said " you dedicate your life to art and complicated women"

 I repeat ....Dedicate your life to complicated women !!! I AM ONE I will throw myself to you!!! jajajaj ONE TWO THREE  i jumped where you there to catch me??? or did you also betray me ?

Love is whatever you can still betray ... Betrayal can only happen if you love. ~

so true

WOMAN...

begin by resisting a mans advances...

and blocking his retreat!!

It reminded me of......

women always worry about the things that men forget, men always worry about the things women remember

This is something my dad would do!!

Like stop the poor boy!! while singing..YOUR DOIN IT WRONG!! JAJAJA he did do much better..

Hes a strong little boy!!! didnt cry not a little bit!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ThObaKJPRlo&feature=haxa_popt00us0d

Some times being bad is  good.....LMAO

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P2NEdetnRVM&feature=featured

Completely love it!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YMiTl7OY7n4&feature=featured

Red Neck Woman

I wen to this super american bar called America's backyard!! and I heard this song that I cant stop singing...

Red neck woman...

Well I ain't never 
Been the barbie doll type 
No I can't swig that sweet champagne 
I'd rather drink beer all night 
In a tavern or in a honky tonk 
Or on a 4 wheel drive tailgate 
I've got posters on my wall of Skynard, Kid and Strait 
Some people look down on me 
But I don't give a rip 
I'll stand barefooted in my own front yard with a baby on my hip 

Cause I'm a redneck woman 
And I ain't no high class broad 
I'm just a product of my raisin' 
And I say "hey y'all" and "Yee Haw" 
And I keep my Christmas lights on, on my front porch all year long 
And I know all the words to every Charlie Daniels song
So here's to all my sisters out there keepin' it country 
Let me get a big "Hell Yeah" from the redneck girls like me 
Hell Yeah 
Hell Yeah 

Victoria's Secret 
Well their stuff's real nice 
Oh but I can buy the same damn thing on a Wal*Mart shelf half price 
And still look sexy 
Just as sexy 
As those models on TV 
No I don't need no designer tag to make my man want me 
You might think I'm trashy 
A little too hard core 
But get in my neck of the woods 
I'm just the girl next door 

Hey I'm redneck woman 
And I ain't no high class broad 
I'm just a product of my raisin' 
And I say "hey y'all" and "Yee Haw" 
And I keep my Christmas lights on, on my front porch all year long
And I know all the words to every Tanya Tucker song 
So here's to all my sisters out there keeping it country
Let me get a big "Hell Yeah" from the redneck girls like me 
Hell Yeah 
Hell Yeah 

I'm redneck woman 
And I ain't no high class broad 
I'm just a product of my raisin' 
And I say "hey y'all" and "Yee Haw" 
And I keep my Christmas lights on, on my front porch all year long
And I know all the words to every Ol' Bocephus song 
So here's to all my sisters out there keeping it country
Let me get a big "Hell Yeah" from the redneck girls like me 
Hell Yeah 
Hell Yeah 

Hell Yeah 
Hell Yeah 
Hell Yeah 
Hell Yeah 

I Said Hell Yeah

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L30V5vnYHzk

mario lopez not a boy scout!

Oh my God  i was watching this program called "pet stars" and Mario Lopez is the host and must I say that You can soooo see that hes afraid of animals jajajaj theres a part where a horse can play a guitar and a piano and hes trying to pet the horse!!! nonono Hes not an animal person at all!!! He just looks afraind that the horse is gonna kick him ...It does not come natural !!! Who cast mario lopez!!??? very  bad casting !!Im not an animal person at all or not even a nature person I was never a girl scout if you know what i mean....

You can see this in the 1:18  and at the begining!!!  he cant talk to country folks!!! 

Mario you should stay with the dance team competition thing...animals just aint your thing...

enjoy....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KA836ivzEyo

Death and Life

 

supuestamente Every day 400000 babies are born, 150000 people die ....

I never lade back and thought about that... but today I found out in less then 24 hours about life and death situations.... A very good friend of mine is cancer free I wanted to share this to the world..Scream out that she is a survivor .... she got poked so many times... got her thighs blue only one side cause she didn't want both legs blue... shaved her head off and fought this Mother fucker called cancer... and as I promised to her  when you survive because you will and she did ...where gonna go on our road trip around Mexico.... and hell yeah were doing it!! so im so blessed that my friend survived and is now a healthy and strong person....

Then my  day went great..... Then I found out that while one of my friends was getting out  of the tunnel ..one was getting in it Head first.... It all started cause all of the sudden she became blind... got her sight back after two hours and then got a MRI  well basically... Her brain has spots like poke a dots and its affecting her nervous system and well  she can become blind or  handicapped or anything else any day, it can happen tomorrow or today or in ten years ..NO cure at all, no one knows when it can happened... no nothing will save my friend from her own brain.. just hope & faith.... With all that has been going on the past year with the very bad news...My friend smiles everyday laughs makes me laugh  and is an overall  hyperactive person ..wants to fuck the world before it fucks her... I wish everyone would see what a beautiful smile she has but I guess that she doesn't want people to know about this so I will not put her "VIE PRIVE VIE PUBLIQUE" jajaj .... Today My friend, you know  who you are .. You have brought a new smile to my life and I hope that today and tomorrow your good vibe goes around my life and the other people around you... I hope that life gives us more days to create new memories  and remember  old ones... Our mission in life has just started ...I say today  Im glad to have met you....

Love

Your new friend and soon to be old friend kaky jajajajja

Southside Love!

Ive been  movin dem legs!! see ..I saw  in my head my baby boy ...That heartless baby boy!!! ...

SUch a cute baby boy

I told him  wa sup baby  boy U mah dwag  you know!!!!! LMAO

i: Dang Boy I haven't seen you in a minute, where you been?

He said : Lets get my drink.....

I: Fo sho! 

 we drunk and got drunk (wink and wink back)

I:  gimmie dat drink

he: you diggin me?

 

I: like u?

HE: dido 

I: well I think you need the 411 on that

(friend: yo man dat chick is sick)

i: Aint nobody askin you for yo 2 cents!

.....Another day of my ghettolicious love!!!!!......

Une folle comme moi....inside out,,, faux cul

Une folle comme moi ....

vous aime encore..

Une folle comme moi  

connais votre douleur...

Un folle comme moi..

ne se rendent pas compte de quoi que ce soit, dit le gens

Une folle comme moi..

Connait pas de cas que une conasse comme toi nique sont copain

Une folle comme moi...

Connais tres peux de la de l'amitié

une folle comme moi...

ecoute ecoute ... entend entend

Un folle comme moi ..

 

dit le gens que je suis folle, cest quoi la folie, alors?

Une folle comme moi...

A sont coeur brisé.. parce que  j'ai jamais pensé recevoir le couteau dans le dos... 

tu pensez que j'ai aller pas realize que tu voulez me imiter...

vas y  ma belle vas y ma belle je t'emprie 

cest pas tres dificil vivre ma vie... =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bHmlGsQ5ucU&feature=related

I love you brother

I have a brother that God did not concieve  in my mother womb  but in my heart...

 i got a brother that lives in a far away land.. and I ask myself how he communicates ja...

.I got a brother That I miss every day ...

. I got a brother that I love in this life and the other..

 I got a brother that makes me laugh...

I got a brother that I chose and hes the best brother in the world..... I got a brother that lived with me, fight with me, helped me and cried with me, when to supermarket with me and got lost in monaco with me...

 I got a brother that our souls are connected... ....

 I found a brother with the biggest heart....

I got a brother 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9, 10 I got a brother who's my best friend... 

I got a brother that would walk around termini to get a big tasty jajaja

I got a brother that walked with me in my  pink coat and him looking like a fucking eskimo! ja

I got a brother that would sing GASOLINA!! JAJAJ dame mas gasolina jajaj ....

I got brother that would have a diet each day and break it everyday 

I got a brother who  would go to pink every day in tours..  fall off the stairs... got stabbed  and became friends with the stabber... I got a brother who aint selfish.. I got a brother that took antonio to the airport and then wanna do voodoo on his ass make him shit cockroaches ja

I have a brother that would piss cachaco's  off jajajaj "bitch leave" "Leo your not gonna get the passport" jaja

I got a brother thats gonna get married and Ill be his  best lady-man  

To you brother, I say I miss you everyday especially now When I have so much How's.... You once told me that I would change... I hope we see each other very soon  not only once in a blue moon .. to hug you tight and drink some wine with your wife and talk about life.....  

I got the best damn brother I could find!! and Im proud to say hes mine!

Pokethon

So today I took dump with my friend  as she touched my ankle jajajajaj and while I was in my tinkle I sprinkled just little LMAO..... screamed out WTF  and laughed cause it was just the other girl beside me taking another dump...... we talked about life and why nobody wanted us as a wife....  ... 

Random  guy poking facebook and she poked back until it broke up onto a pokethon attack.....

.....she getting alergies because of the mess  and why her DEO  is the best!!!! .....

how did her arm pit manage to touch her shirt... fuck it will make her eat dirt.... Why not be a hippie tomorow... what do you think about the weather tomorow...I dont know Im not the weatherman..... 

Talking about why I shouldnt love and why she shouldnt say  cause it goes in and out the other way...I know I know I said .. im just soo stupid!!! jajajaj 

We met gloria estefan's  niece felt like being a looser jajaj OHH I HAVE A PICTURE WITH YOUR AUNT but I controlled my self!!! Found out that  Marvin gaye is a cry baby isnt that weird!..... well not so much when your dad kills you....

We caught hash seeing and thinking about my stash jajajaj 

Well we did a happy list and must I say We met debz and she's a blast from far away... I also met the nicest person on the planet earth that has no  bad bones inside her body..caitlyn...

We finally finished the script I acted and I kicked some shit!!! Im almost touching my dream  and Im about to scream!!!!! joy joy is all we have to say another day has passed in our college days!

You said you loved me I waited years to here those words .... You explained your self and I just heard.... I smiled a lot... and then I thought what I read  in class....  

Can one desire too much of a good thing?

shakespeare

Now you explain what I always knew and no one believed except me and you.... 

To this I say one step each day, will get there . I have waited days one more wont kill me...

I like this place and willingly could waste my time in it....(S) as I have had the past 8 years....

I t was not easy to  see my happiness through another woman's eyes  but as 'S' says we have all seen better days...,

O Romeo, Romeo! wherefore art thou Romeo?"....

But love is blind, and lovers cannot see"

Good Night, Good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow, that I shall say good night till it be morrow."

Quote

'En el mundo actual, se está invirtiendo cinco veces más en medicamentos para la virilidad masculina y silicona para mujeres, que en la cura del Alzheimer. De aquí algunos años, tendremos viejas de tetas grandes y viejos con pene duro, pero ninguno de ellos se acordará para que sirven'. 

We had dinner

We had dinner and wine.... and my dad gave us a piece of his mind...

..obama.... race.... love and hate... future and little bit more of future and how happy he is that all these events with people have happened to me... you see Karine I told you... LOL.. we had a great time.... me and my friend talked about when we thought it was gonna be the end and the day we laughed again..... we were four that night  the stars where shining bright .....then she gave this card with a joke that she had wrote.... I felt a tear come down my cheek because that day you made me see that even though your weird your here for me.....

Thank you my weird named friend it took me the begining and the end to understand that you are my  beloved friend .....

Dear you

Dear You

I would like to say leave me alone.. do not say you care because you dont... Do not try to know about my life.... Do not try to think I want to know about yours... 

Dear You, do not invest your time  in finding out why.. invest in yourself... 

Dear you, I would only wish that you leave me alone ...Dear you I am exhausted...

Dear you, do not invest your energy in talking about me, none of the parties will get anything out of it.  

Dear you, its like a big break up with out being one.... Dear you, I say hello and goodbye all in the same sentence for you and I are all a lie.... You made your choice and I made mine... Skype away Ill be fine.... 

Dear you let me be I have God looking out for me... Don't worry  the only thing I want is to be free from you and from she... No trust, no respect... betrayal  is all that was left ...so there is nothing more to look for in me...  So make believe we never saw the flaws in each other.. make believe we never met each other....make believe you never called me friend....believe it was all pretend

 So dear you, just let me be.....ill be ok..i'll be ME

Successful relationships

So yeah speech class with Mr carreras how Ironic that we had to do a speech about Successful relationships LMAO .....

First of all what is Success ?

the favorable or prosperous termination of attempts or endeavors. Result of failing over and over and willing to fail again.

What is relationship?

an emotional or other connection between people

What blocks you to get to a successful relationship?

What prevents us to go where is needed to go?

.....Am I even ready to be in a relationship?....

Nobody is ready for marriage until married.. Great time to be ready!

 .....This maybe is why we cant be in a successful relationship

 have you ever felt or done:

deliberately annoy people

piteful and vindictive

 blame others for his or her mistakes or misbehavior

touchy or easily annoyed by others

argues

 loses temper

Well yes i have and believe it or not This is like a sickness its called DEFIANT DISORDER!!! so is Simon really trying to tell us that where basically  all crazy  we all suffer from this disorder.... Cause I have all the symptoms ...

So all these symptoms are what gets in the way of us having a successful relationship and relationship....

Ok so this guy wrote that Women are from venus and Men  from Mars....

How can two species from different planets  be a SOULMATE...Come on... significant other!!! are you kidding me ... 

So where suppose to be Intimate right??? Make love not fucking  LOVE!!

But wha'ts more ironic is that  the real meaning of the word Fuck 

Fucking: is used to reach a higher religious place by integrating sex and spirituality

So how ironic is that.......

Friendship

lt. dan: forest  have you found jesus yet
forest: I didn’t know I had to be looking for him lt.

I ask this everyday

Forrest Gump:  Mama, what’s my destiny?
Mrs. Gump:  You’re gonna have to figure that out for yourself.

Forrest Gump: My mama always said you got to put the past behind you before you can move on.

'SOMETIMES THERE JUST AIN'T ENOUGH STONES' - Forrest Gump

.......Sometimes you just cant keep on fighting and hating because there's nothing left in you.... your past will ketch up to your present.....

passed it on to numbness

Today..was an ok day it started out with a SALSA dance with my speech teahcer to prove a point...then talking about cultural lens ... an hour of a cruel intentions vs dangerous liasons in class essay ... group project with 6 people not wanting to do shit and having to do it cause its 30% percent of the grade ja due on wednesday and were gonna be total asses jajaj infront of the judges jaja if they dont get their shit 2gether.... studied a little bit of mkting... see what i meen just a normal day ... AND BAM!  got stabbed in the stomach! and you see even if I dont want it to hurt it does and a lot...it always happens this way ...it hurts for about 4 days and then it goes away and im numbed ....keep on trying to remember the people that make me happy...but nope  it aint working ..it will pass and pass as always it keeps on passing..... until little by little im becoming the person my father once told me I would be ....Numbed

K

 

pensamientos

My lips are sealed... I told them.... Remember my friend I told her .... dont tell your problems to anyone that 80% of people are happy you have them 15% dont care and 5% are the people you love...... She told me that he looks at porn... I say better jacking off at porn then really cheating.... He says hes gonna die I say that if he does my entire soul will have a hard time living so he better not die... She says shes hurt because what was done I said dont worry better people and times will come.... I go to the airport and ask myself why are these people flying, they all have these look on their faces !! of knowing or not knowing why there going or why there leaving or maybe running away from something or maybe just because they got a cheap ticket.... Me im going to my home town where I feel at home even if its just to sit on my front porch seeing the cars pass........

He broke up and hes going crazy....I like the way when your cold and get into the sun  after your feet start feeling warm... i love the text in the morning saying LUNCH ?"  just for me to say yes!!!! I like the end of the day when I get to the class and your there to cheer me up!.... I love every sunday our lesbian movie date.... I like when were both quiet in your house or my house but there nothing to say but no akward silence... I love that day my friend we were at the pool of my house just the two of us and we spoke about love that wanst love that ended up being love....... I love the miracle i saw how can a beautiful baby come out of my friend that moment in time I really saw a miracle beautiful peaceful human being.... I love the messages they both left me.....Sad the way it all ended... Happy the way its all coming up all of sudden im there in a spotlight  all types of colors..... I see diploma.. I went to the Tv production lab OHH MY god  I felt like a fat kid in a candy store  my heart pounded cant wait for next semester to record..... tic toc tic toc goes the clock tic tok tic tok goes time showing me times and times again  you cant control destiny ....Im grateful for acomplishing the steps to go where I must go.... Im grateful for your words ask everyday to the God you believe in show me my enemies that are visible to the eye and also the one that arent visible....Im grateful for the words "Be the change you want of the world" even though  my cherie its not easy the satisfaction is enormous.... I feel grateful for ricardo  who shows me how to Nam myo ho rengkyo  infront of people even if they  think im crazy... still in the process where working on it.... I am grateful for all the moments god bad and different and the ones that I am still waiting for I welcome them to... to my colorful life ... I welcome you,  we will not have a dull moment I promise....

facts

Today was a day  of information and facts...

I decided to change my minor I use to study  mkting and pr and I was like humm no So now its PR and TV broadcasting and acting!! I almost cried cause Im reaching my dream its like en la punta de mis dedos!!!! I will be proud when I get my diploma!!! I will also be proud when I get the Mexican passport ohh God the only passport I dont have and thrive for! I will get it one day!! =) 

fact the fact of the fact.... i found out that a guy friend changed his  name to JULY ja 

Then another friend told me that if you ever stay for about 10 years in asia you eyes will become  a little bit like asian eyes and may I say she is totally convinced jajajaj i still have to check it on google....

I cried watching susan boyle sing!!!! fact that not all great thing come in beauty ...

I found out that when a baby tries to talk "goo goo gaga" its not really that the noises that a baby makes are all the sounds that all the languages in the world have...so the baby has the capacity to learn any language....so i ask myself if there is 10 people talking to the baby 10 different language wil he end up speaking the ten languages jaja who knows gotta google that too

Carla bruni reads una estrofa de shakespeare every day  she also wrote her hit song cause her sister called her and tld her " hey I saw your ex boyfriend he told me that he still loved you  bla bla" so she called him even though he had said that no more contact and he got upset telling her that they had promised to not call so she was sad and wrote the song Quelqu'un M'a Dit

I also found out that elephants cry and laugh!!!! 

The number zero was invented in India!!

 

If you stop getting thirsty   yo have to drink water cause when the body is dehydrated the first thing it does is to shut the thirst mechanism ... i should get water now pero tengo hueva de pararme jajaj !!! 

Chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying.

everytime you sneeze AHHHSHUMMM  some of your brain cells die!!!!! I need them Ive done alot of other shit, that i cant risk any more!!! so no more sneezing for me! 

When you blush, the lining of your stomach also turns red.

Every day 200 million  people make love (i am not one of them) , 400,000 babies are born (glad not to be them either) , and 140,000 people die (one day ill be a part of that number... todos vamos pa viejos jaja)

los dos animales que pueden ver atras de ellos sin voltear es el conejo y el parrot Y TEN EN CUENTA Q LAS MAMAS NO ESTAN EN ESA CATEGORIA moms do not have eyes in the back of their heads jajajaj

Dear Mr

 Dear MR 

At the begining it was just like the end.... I was in my home and you came into my home.. had a burger and left and just at that moment I was done... I did not know!  but Life knew..... Mr   I went to new york and i promised to call and you did not believe me!  when i said hey im in new york im good ..." are you really there and are you really calling"  never thouhgt someone would do it huh.. barely knowing you.... Mr  you  took away my RAINBOW  underwear till this day I cant  find one identical... they were my favorite lol.... Mr  I was thinking about a long lost love on the beach at night wanting to leave and you asked me for my kiss and I gave it to you.... Mr you bought me the first Camel cigarettes I ever smoked.... Mr  i cried ...Mr  i was super creative within the suffereing I caused myself...Mr  I laughed my ass off doing stupid things in the name of love or may I say of stupidity...Mr  I had put you in the past ....Mr i  have not heard the critiques of the critique... Mr I have been obssesed... depressed... happy... euforica... and calm... MR I have nothing to ask or nothing to demand ... Mr I have taken back my heart  to live but it has always been yours...Mr we believe in each other...Mr love is not all and we both agree on that.....Mr I wish for you complete happiness... as happy as I can be you can be ! lol 

Mr we have never started our road and never ended it either....Mr one day we will meet again and I will smile and Mr in my mind I will whisper I LOVE YOU ..... Mr as high as I get in life or as low, as far or near ...Mr we both have two different worlds that even if we understand it it does not mean we can live in it .... Mr we have been lucky to see each other in this life as well....Mr TOO much love in one whole body....Mr my heart I carry it with me everywhere

Mr I have nothing else to say..... Mr...You will always  be my Mr  

Best regards 

Mrs

Wax

Now days people are having problems with WAX...

two friends in less then a month have been getting severe burns  by waxing themselves... 

Waxing off those little pelitos that no one wants!!! 

I ve been waxing my  life to and getting burned in the process.... one by one taking off the little pelitos i dont want..... people ask... Why  have you changed? why do you take them out? maybe shits out of context? lol thats my favorite...

To these questions I have no answer like scientific answers...

lets see if i can express in words what is in mind.... as mind is something you can not describe in words or see or feel  but you know it exsist  well same thing......

I have changed cause i felt the need to.. im still in the process and I feel that  I hit rock bottom and then I  gave gave and gave.. a  little bit like the character Ruth  in the play  "Raisin in the sun"   well i gave and forgot about me and then I thought that people were gonna act like I would have... They were gonna be the friends that I was expecting them to be.. and little by little they weren't  and well having in my life was like that pelito enterrado so i said fuck it "de raiz"  AND BAM gone! I do not forget the great moments I had  with them fuck they were fun!!!  but I just cant keep explaining my life cause im just going with it...  about context well it depends why you think the reason is of why your not in my life  jajaj  ...its funny how people think "oh its cause of this" and  your thinking ... They really haven't got it... and exactly my point made.. they dont get it... so yeah right now im at that place that te recuperas de una caida and once your on your feet PUM gone down again... I SHOULD JUST STAY DOWN i wouldn't have  the trouble of getting up again.... hell no!  

So im at this moment that im jsut waiting whos next.... and well Maybe i dont tell people This moment was when i said NO MAS i just shut up and let it flow  and then retreat... just yesturday I said GOODBYE to a person and it wasnt like good bye it was really un ADIOS.... when you feel  like crying and you can't cry cause your infront of people that you dont feel like you can cry infront of them... then there you know... this is over.... and then  there i knew... 

dont get me wrong Im not one of those people to think FUCK HIM OR FUCK HER OR FUCK THEM  maybe  my attitude is...  but I dont feel  it... si algun dia me los topo en la vida and they need my help or just say hello Ill be there... But right now i dont feel  like investing time and energy in explaining the whys and whats of my life and the judgemental look in their eyes... Im too busy trying to fix me  the insides of me !! of myself and All i can say  is that I have alot to fix and im working on it every day.....

 Now, i dont scream anymore!! i use to love screaming  jaja it was liberating 

Now  i dont do that no more, too many people get hurt and to scream doesnt give you time to think analyze .....

so its 1234....see...look..analyze... think... and act or not....

Rainbow

sooner or later they all show their colors!

why am I the crazy one? when I did not do anything I just heard observed and asked? I f I had reacted ok ? but well right now I wont think cause I cant change what is thought or heard or said.